“You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.” Psalms 23:5
My Heavenly Daddy is so caring! I am so thankful to Him! My cup overflows! Vince is now in the 1st grade at the “Mozgásjavító” Elementary School. I go to pick him up after classes, and I see as the children whiz by and chase each other, some with a wheelchair, some with a walker, some with a bit of a limp but no aid at all. But they are all together, Vince smiles, there is mischief in his eyes, and my heart is just filled with joy. One of the boys reaches for Vince’s hand, places it on his tablet and tells him: Vince, put in something with your speech program!
Then come the busy weekdays. The alarm goes off at 5 AM, and we hurry to get to school before the morning rush. I run errands, I listen to the audio material from my Bible school; we are getting ready for the next chest surgery. In the afternoon we run a race against time, so we can finish homework, stand Vince up, practice typing, dinner, bath, playtime and story time all before 8 PM.
In the meantime God showers me with so many wonderful things! We receive the support for the patient lift, and we even have it set up in Vince’s room. Friends, acquaintances give us financial support, exactly when we need it the most. Doctors, the National Health Insurance Fund (NEA), medical aid distributors, administrators answer us right when we get stuck, and there is no way out in terms of an approval or support. Relatives, friends lend us helping hands, right we have no more strength! If I count all my blessings, they have no end! My cup overflows!
“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.”Romans 8:26
Everything happens so quickly! Our lives are so fast paced; every five minutes have a dedicated place. I feel the weariness in my bones, but at the same time I am showered with so many blessings! There are days when I concentrate on the things I need to do, and on other days on Jesus Christ. It is like a rollercoaster; it would be so nice to get off and only focus on God’s peace, and on His perfect gift, Jesus. And when I am not in a rush, I catch myself complaining. I pour my heart out to everyone I
meet, and I tell them how tiring this running around is, how tiring it is that Vince doesn’t speak, so I need to figure out with and each and every one of his school tasks how he could solve them and how I could ask them back. I tell them we are going to get surgery again, because the chest platelets that were put in two years now need to be removed. I complain about the 1.5-hour traffic jam. I am impatient when Vince needs to go to the bathroom while we are in the car. Oh, I complain about so many things… In the end I realize I don’t need to pour out my heart to anyone. I have one job: I need to talk to God about them! I need to tell Him all my troubles, and then I need to count all the wonderful things I can really be thankful for!
“Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”Philippians 4:5-7
Then there is always a point when I don’t fight against the rollercoaster anymore, because I understand that this is a good attack of the devil towards me, towards humanity. This rush. It is such a simple game, still, it is so tiring! But I accept it, because I know I am the child of God, and all of this I see now is only temporary. Eternal life awaits! So I accept it with complete peace that I have also become a long distance runner in Christ!
” I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living
in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”
My prayer is that God may give me strength to remain in faith! No matter how much we have to rush, I can run up to Him and I can give Him all of my worries, my fears, my impatience and anger. Thank God I don’t need to rush alone, a lot of my soulmates support me. There are times when I get a text message: five minutes of prayer? I love it! Everything changes in these five minutes! God can gift us with His unlimited love and peace at any time, in any situation! I am in place now, there is quiet in my heart, and I lean back: God is creating! Ssssh… don’t say anything, just wait, wait with patient, wait for His next blessing! He will never let you go! Amen.